This morning I finally feel the end of summer has arrived and I've landed back on planet Cynthia. Every year I leave this planet for a while and try and soak up sun and relaxation in such abundant amounts that it can last for the rest of the year. As I've said before I always come back in early September and often have landed with a considerable bang.
For some inexplicable reason this year I've arrived back in my home and into my self with a more grounded and sober attitude. I feel better than I have in some time (except for an odd foot problem with a great name - plantar fascitis) and am filled with positive inspiration and resolution. Many of my summer experiences have sparked a little creative flame and I have many embryonic projects in mind to begin over the next months.
I also came to a much belated realisation recently regarding my children. Both my kids live on the other side of the world. They are adults and they've both managed (without my help) to create happy, successful lives. This may seem obvious to most people and maybe it is even obvious to me, but I had one of those light bulb moments recently where I stopped in my tracks and thought 'hey, it makes no difference what I think about the way my kids are running their lives, they don't have to ask permission anymore and I don't have the power over them that parents have over little children. They're adults and pretty fantastic ones at that'. So this has made me feel easier and freer with them and maybe even more respectful. It's only taken me years to learn this. Better late...
For the rest, today is an average good day. There are more and more of these lately. I am no longer surprised that life is good. I am a little bit superstitious and I do find it hard to say these things in print or out loud, but I am into tempting fate. Actually I am much more into fate. I am firmly in charge at the moment. I am even on another diet!
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